The Hunt for Someone

Been a while since my last post. I have been doing a lot of growing in the way of my spirituality and things have been getting clearer for me.

It is funny what twists and turns happen in your life when you least expect them. It's like that person, you or me, who constantly try to find the person of their dreams. Their search is never over and they are always sifting through all of the people they meet or putting themselves out there with dating services and other things like that. I have known a few people who have done that and it is always at that moment when they completely give up, when they're so sick and tired of going through the same motions with nothing to show for it, that they find that special someone.

It happens with smaller stuff too, like when you can't remember some important bit of information you were going to tell a friend. As soon as you let go of trying to remember what it is, you remember what it is.

This is what the Law of Allowing is about. It is about letting go and allowing the Universe to work and provide for you what you want. Giving up can be looked at as 'giving it up to your higher self". Another way of looking it is through EWOP (everything works out perfectly). You take a problem and give it up to your higher self to deal with. Trusting in that part of you to take care of it swiftly and easily. Tell yourself that everything works out perfectly and then release the worry.

A friend of mine has told me that she goes through life expecting nothing and is always pleasantly surprised when things pop up for her. She has also told me that she believes that there is more than one soul mate for each person out there. I believe she's right on both counts.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Deliberate Creation - Want vs. Desire

Due to a recent break up in my life, I have been battling with my inner wants and what I think are desires. I constantly go back and forth between wanting this person back in my life as he used to be and counting it as a real blessing that he stepped out of it. I know in my heart that it is probably more of a blessing and that all of the things that I miss about him are the things that can be found with any other relationship, but I still want him. Or, at least I think that I want him. I probably just want what he gave me in the relationship which means that I need to just let him go.

*big sigh*

The spiritual journey that I am on is directly affected by the challenges and transformations that the ends of each relationship brings. One of the main reasons for this blog is to share this spiritual journey with everyone in the hope that readers will learn something from it, or at least be amused by my mishaps. Either way, I want to share my experiences with the world.

On my quest for knowledge I ran across a website that really sparked my interest. It is always amazing to me to suddenly want to know something about something and then find the exact thing that you needed to hear without even searching for it. I found this site searching for Deliberate Creation and I found it quite easily, but what I also found was this:

Desire can be seen as a "positive" feeling. When we desire something, we are exuberant, enthusiastic about getting and having it.

Want can be seen as a "negative" feeling. It equates with lack. It says to the Universe, "I need this particular thing, it's missing in my life and, without it, all is not well." This sets up a vibration of desperation, of tension and difficulty, and closes down our ability to notice and receive anything that is made available to us.
-- Don Beckett

That was when the hammer hit the nail on the head. I hadn't thought too much about wanting things because I thought that's what deliberate creation was all about. I thought it was about saying "I want this" and then putting some good thoughts out about it and ping there it was. I knew it was about the content of the thoughts that you have when you want something but actually defining the difference between desire and want made it all click for me. I believe that the article is true for the most part. We tend to want things that we don't have, therefore want them because the lack of them. Going back to the Law of Attraction, if like attracts like, then wanting something because of the lack of it will attract the lack of it.

The next paragraph of the article really hit home for me.

The classic example of wanting is unrequited love. When we desire a person who does not reciprocate the feeling, we tend to become obsessed with thoughts of them. Negative kinds of thoughts: longing, pining, self-pity, depression, neediness, sadness, desperation, hopelessness. Which not only kill any possibility of attracting the person, they squelch our ability to attract any sort of desirable people and experiences. We start to become a magnet for all kinds of negative things: sickness, accidents, and other people who are vibrating on the wavelengths of woe and self-pity and hopelessness.
-- Don Beckett

I have been pegged! All of the things that I had been thinking towards my ex in a nice little list. Oops. It is so easy for me to fall into the state of thinking about all nasty little things that I would like to say to him because they would make me feel better. It's usually at that point where I try to completely cast him out of my mind and think of happier things. I know that deep down, he believes he did the right thing that is all that should matter. I should not waste any energy on being mad at him because it won't do anyone any good.

There is no such thing as coincidence; the universe knows what it's doing. If we weren't meant to be together, then we were meant to be with someone better for us. It should be seen as a blessing even though it's sometimes hard to see past the gloom.

It seems as though the whole universe is waiting for me to pull myself together and make myself ready for the next person who will come into my life. When the time is right, after I have sorted through all of the emotions and have gotten completely over this one, the universe will let me stumble upon the next one. I have no doubt that he will be even better than the last. I can hardly wait!

The Laws..

In my previous post I talked about how I rediscovered the secret and how it was my mother who introduced me to the concept about a decade ago. I've kept those emails for years and I really do go and read through them when my life feels like it's losing focus. I would like to share them with you now, so without further ado...


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Your soul. This is the part of you that some call the Inner Being or the True Self. It is the part of you that is the culmination of all your past experiences and is very wise and absolutely adores you. She knows you and loves you and is always with you. She is your connection with the Life Force of the Universe. She communicates with you through your emotions. There are only two emotions: good or bad though they may have different names. When you are being true to your self, you are happy, content and even joyful. When you let your true self flow, you are productive, happy, everything goes your way. When you do not let her flow thru you, you are lonely, unhappy, frustrated, etc. When you are feeling negative emotion then you are resisting your true self.

YOU ARE NOT ON THIS EARTH TO PROVE YOURSELF WORTHY OF ANYTHING TO ANYONE!

The only thought important to you are your own thoughts. The only opinions that are important to you are your own opinions. What you think of yourself affects your entire universe. Your natural state is one of health and well-being. You are a powerful being who has chosen to be here in this time. Every day, look for those experiences that make you feel good, that are satisfying to you.

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The Law of Attraction is a funny one. It is your thoughts that do the attracting. It is also your thoughts that do the creating of your reality. The balance of your thoughts up to now is what you are living. That is the balance between the positive and negative thoughts that you have had in the past. It is your thoughts now that create your future. If you direct your thoughts to create the positive things you want in your life, then your actions would follow suit. One good thought attracts other good thoughts which attract other good thoughts, etc. So too do negative thoughts work the same way.

So how come, if I can think and put out there the thoughts of what I want, I get bad stuff. Let's take money for example. I go around a lot saying, I can't get that because I can't afford it or that I don't have enough money and I keep digging myself into a hole. I can say to the universe "I want money!" If I say it because I am feeling the lack of it, then I am attracting more lack, not more money. Attraction happens when there is strong emotional pulling. If I feel bad when I say "I want money!" then I will attract the negative. All of life has both positive and negative to it. The world is constantly balancing itself.

I'll tell you what works for me. I think instead about what I want and I say to the world, ok, I want this. This is why I want it and what I want to do with it and I visualize myself using it and this makes me happy. Then I trust in the world to send me what I want. I allow it to happen and sometimes, I get the money for it, but sometimes, it shows up in unexpected ways. The trick is not to worry about it and to EXPECT it to happen.

Wanting has to come from a happy positive emotion to be positive. When you are feeling good, like when you are listening to music or going for a walk, is when you should think about and say to the world about what you are wanting. Maybe you want to know what you want. That is ok too. Just think about why you want to know this and what you want to accomplish. Anything is possible.

I still have those negative thoughts. You know those ones that come from the critics in you: the little brat who always whines to get her way, the committee that gives you all the SHOULDS and SHAME ON YOU and WHAT WILL THEY THINK?, the mother who never thinks you do anything right, and the old hag who is just plain crazy. I can always tell when I start talking negatively to myself, then I feel bad. Some times I can do that little mind turn, that pivot that gets me going in the right direction. I think about what it is that I really want, why I want it and why I should have it. If I can't do that, I try to think of something else. Try to put that bad stuff out of my mind. Sometimes, I get too busy to even try and then I really get into a state like worrying over money, or eating too much. You know. I am the only one who can create in my reality. When you realize that, it makes you free. When I can get all my thoughts flowing in the same direction, then I feel my power. Everything I am saying to you, you already know. Your Inner Self knows it. Trust in yourself.

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Ok you know the law of attraction and the law of deliberate creating. The last one is the law of allowing, which is basically that each person does his or her own creating. The law is you have to let other people do what they do even if you don't agree with them; even if they are criticizing you or looking at you funny. That is their prerogative. You do not have to be influenced by them. And you can't judge them because you do not know what their truth is. This is a hard law to really take. These three laws are suppose to work even if you do not believe in them and they work all the time whether you are deliberate about creating your world or not. I do not know how much of it I believe. This is what I do believe. That every body and every thing in this world has a balance. That balance is comprised of good and the absence of good. You know the axiom of there is always two sides to a story. In every moment we all have the potential to choose one or the other. This balance is in everything in nature. Light is balanced by dark, yin and yang, hot cold, up down, etc. This balance is actually all of our choices that make anything possible. Some churches want you to believe that anything that they consider as not good is evil. This is a very short sighted view. Take the long view and you will see that the absence of what is thought good is sometimes just another choice another truth. Even Hitler thought he was right. Everyone has got their biases. I am not sure how far you want to take this. Freedom also has its down side.

These laws by the way sound very much like Descartes, with his "I think therefore I am." If you take it to its natural conclusion of - if you create by your thoughts, then you are constantly creating yourself.

Growth is a never ending process. There is no reaching perfection. Only the balancing and rebalancing of each moment. God is not a perfect being that we are all striving to become or achieve. We are always connected to the Life Force and our awareness, attention and focus is that of the Life Force. All of our experience adds to this Energy and
this Energy is there for us to mold our lives with, to create our reality. When we stand in our power and accept and flow in our true selves, we do not need the approval of anyone else. At your age you may still be striving to become. At my age it is good to just be.

It is not necessary for you to believe any of this. That is not my reason for writing all this. You will have to find your own philosophy of your life. I wanted you to know what mine is.

Love, Mom

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Thank you, Mom. I love you as well.


The only thoughts I would like to add are the ones on the Law of Allowing. This Law is not only about allowing others to be whoever they're going to be, this Law is also about trusting the Universe. It is the final step to attracting and deliberate creating. You think positively about something means you deliberately create it. In order to receive your manifestations, you must allow them to happen. It's sort of like ordering something from a catalog, once the order is placed you know that you're going to get it in the mail. It's a done deed. The same is true when you ask the Universe for something. You feel good, you ask it, it's done. The only thing you have to do is wait for it. Time spent fretting about the 'ifs' and 'whens' of something can only delay it from happening. Worrying whether or not it's going to happen is a negative emotion. Doubting something will happen attracts doubt. Trusting that it will happen, will make it happen. If it seems impossible, think that it is possible. Allow it.


-Rhiannon

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